Well I'm not going to talk about "Ways to get good marks!" or "How can I get a boyfriend in school?" (I have good marks but I can't explain you how... I don't have any idea how I get them. To the second one I can't tell you how can you do it as I don't know how to do it.) No, I'm going to talk about something that is bothering me a long time ago.
Yesterday, in my PE class we were testing our resistance and speed. I suck at both. In my first speed test (where I had a C), after my resistance test, I was dying. I ask to go the showers... Well, when I walk in I heard someone crying. I didn't actually need to find her... she was right behind me. I knew her, she was a new girl at my class. I didn't know what to do, I'm not a friend of hers or anything like that. Sometimes we talk but I don't spend much time with her... she has other friends. So I stand there, looking at her, doing nothing, not even asking
What is going on? as a normal person would do. I was in panic. I don't know how to deal with people, specially when I don't know them. (Yeah, I suck with people).
She notice I was there so she get up and came to me, hugging me. I sit with her trying to calm her down. She started to talk, telling me what happened.
She told me she miss her school. Everyone in my school were a bunch of bastards. The girls, they are always insulting each other in the back and the guys... well, they looked at her at the beginning. She is pretty and stuff so they start to go after her. When she basically said to them that she didn't wanted to be eaten up by them they start to ignored her. She felt alone, and she want to go back to her school... She is pretty much sensible. Well.. I'm not. I know people only don't talk badly in my back because I'm... how can I say it..
Invisible. I'm not pretty, I'm not a talker person. I like to be on my own so I don't have the chance to feel the same way of hers. But I did... Seeing her crying in front of me was a torture. I suddenly get how insensible I'm. We are. All the school is. I felt such a bad person... I realise that I never sat with her and asked how she was doing? I rarely even spoke with her, I didn't give her a chance to show me what kind of person she is.
She wasn't a weak or a loser because she was crying. She was strong enough to show her feelings to me. She said:
You probably are thinking that I'm crying to get your attention, or because I'm spoiled. It's not that I swear.
Why would I think like that? Did everyone ever did that to her? Because if that's true I was ready to break that person's neck.
What I'm trying to get is... To the both situation, if you are in her situation or in mine, show to the people how you feel. You can be brave like her and tell it to someone you barely know, or you can talk to your friends. You can even write about it, like me. But don't keep it to yourselves, it will be worst. There's always someone ready to support you. And those people don't know it yet, you've got to teach them how. You'll be doing them a favour. But if you can't do that, if you trust that people (and I get it, I'm like that too) talk to me. I don't know you, I won't judge you. I will just trying to help. Please... don't be that mean to yourself.
And to the bastards who like to see the other people suffer. GET A HEART. YOU IDIOT. You people are such despicable...
Well, think about it.
Byee
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